Fleshly desires are easily mistaken, leading one to believe that they are in love. It’s easy to have your vision distorted when your heart is feeling this burning sensation to feel loved. This so called love, can be hidden and disguised as nothing better than lust. You think because someone can temporarily satisfy your desires to feel loved and wanted, there’s no need for God to do the same. The mind says, well I can’t have both. I must choose where I will spend all my time, whom I will give all my love, and how I can give that person my all in exchange for them to show that they truly care and desire to spend forever with me.
A few years later or maybe even months, when those feelings are no longer as strong as they once were. Your heart feels this void that can not be touched nor filled by worldly possessions, or the affections that once spark these emotions causing you to be blinded by this thing called love. You begin to question whether you are doing all that you can to keep the relationship afloat. You are searching for answers, that cannot be found because you know what to do in order to find the truth in knowing that God is the only one that can truly satisfy.
It is why so many women spend their lives giving themselves up to men that don’t see their worth, who don’t even desire to get to know their hearts. If they can get them into bed, they have done their part in satisfying their own sexual desires and pleasures leaving the woman to feel even emptier inside. She thinks to herself, why am I not worth the love that I deserve and desire. Why can’t I be shown this love that is displayed in Songs of Songs between two lovers, that love that allowed Ruth to become a queen to her Boaz, a love displayed between both Abraham and Sarah, a Queen like Esther who was destined to be married to her King.
You see, in the midst of her insecurities, she searches for love but never realizes that she’s been looking in all the wrong places. Believing that if she was to give herself to just anyone to have a glimpse of someone to show her love, then maybe she can feel loved, even if it’s short lived. She longs for that intimacy, that desire to know someone cares for her. Her childhood experiences, scarred with painful memories and distasteful affection shown in her household, caused her to not know what she is truly worth.
She continues to search, not understanding the difference between lust and love and commonly mistakes it as one. She sees no value in herself so how can she expect for men to see her worth. She can’t see how her pain has hindered her from allowing her to see how she is hurting herself with the decisions she makes. She cries herself to sleep confused how she still haven’t filled this emptiness that dwells in her heart. She doesn’t know that God heals. He can take her weaknesses and make them her strength.
After being in the darkest place in her life, she reaches out to God for help. Asking God to rescue her from herself. She knows even though she been lost and distant from God, he still is faithful. She stopped searching for that so called “love” and started seeking after unconditional love. That love that no man can even come close to fill the void that she once felt. It was no longer lust that seemed to keep her deeply rooted in her pain, but that love that was bought with a price and easily gained. That love that only God could give her.
It was then she began to see her worth and value. It was then she no longer gave herself to just anybody and everybody, but began to save herself for her future spouse. Making a vow between her and God, that she would no longer give her body for temporary pleasures, but save herself for her wedding day. It was then she saw the importance of truly knowing her worth in God and began to carry herself with confidence.
She began to see herself as a Queen and began attracting nothing but royalty. She was focused on her relationship with the King, that whoever pursued her had to go through her Lord before he could get close to her. It was then, she saw the importance of waiting for God to order her steps, guiding her throughout her life.
God not only turned her hurt and pain into her testimony, but gave her this new found love that many people can never seem to find because they seek a love that won’t lead nowhere but to the bedroom, and a broken heart. But is that really love? A man can satisfy, but emotionally can be far away not even there. It’s that lust that can easily blind and cloud the real love that God designed for us to experience.
That love that is everlasting no matter how much we fail and mess up. Cause let’s face it, we are human and will disappoint. But guess who never will switch up on us when the going gets tough? God’s love remains in us because if God is in us, then we will always have love, because God is love. No matter how much a person may love you, they can never love you the way God does.
People will disappoint and even cause you hurt, but God’s love is unconditional. So protect your heart and guard your mind from those temporary pleasures. Ask God for strength and healing because it will not be an easy task. It’s going to be painful letting go of old habits and unhealthy relationships, but it’s a must. Not everyone deserves the treasure that you are. It must be kept for the one who will secure it for a lifetime. Remember you are a jewel, nothing less.